Friday, February 24, 2017

When You Wish Upon a Star


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T-minus 9 days until my birthday. I get so excited every year. I like to make it into a month-long celebration, because why not. Birthdays are special. It's a day to celebrate being born, being alive, being YOU. 

It's also a really great time to TREAT YO'SELF. :) I thought I'd share a list of things I've been ogling on the interwebz lately, because again, why not. Aside from diamonds, window shopping is a girl's best friend. And if you guys could do me a solid and share this with my husband, that'd be great. He's still in the dog house from Valentine's Day. But that's a story for another day. 




This mug is totally me. Besides, we all need a little more unicorn in our lives. 




Because pretty. And because they would look amazing in my bullet journal doodles. 


These things are supposed to have all kinds of health benefits. I don't know if that's true. But they frickin' look cool. 




Because I like books. And I like YouTube. And so books about YouTube = perfect. 




Don't you judge me. I love this movie. Dancing queeeeeeeeen... 




And finally, because I've never met a shiny new notebook that I didn't like. 


What's on your birthday wish list? 



Wednesday, February 22, 2017

Say Anything

I hope you enjoy this installment of "Say Anything".

Cast:
Me - xx years old
Hubs - 32 years old
Dom - 8 years old
William - 6 years old

*****

William: MOM! Dom is on your phone. He keeps taking pictures of me!
Me: Dom, please stop taking pictures of your brother.
Dom: But Mom, I can't help it, William is such a majestical model.

Actual photo he took during this conversation.


Me: Ew, you boys need a bath. You smell like goat farts.
Dom: I DO NOT SMELL LIKE GOAT FARTS.
Me: Well, have you actually ever smelled a goat fart?
Dom: ....no. 
Me: Exactly.

Photo credit: Rebecca J. Imagery 


Me: William, your dad and I are taking you and your brother to the Natural History Museum this weekend. Doesn't that sound like fun? They have a bunch of interesting things to see.
William: Like what? Video games? Toys? 
Me: No, no toys. But really cool stuff like animal bones and fossils.
William: So we're just going to look at stuff? 
Me: ...yes. 
William: This is going to be so boring.

Photo Credit: Rebecca J. Imagery 




Hubs: We gotta get home. I have to go to the bathroom. 
Dom: Number 1 or number 2? 
Hubs: Number 3. 
Dom: That sounds bad.




Dom: I like Gigi. You can't like her, too. We can't have the same girlfriend. 
William: She's not your girlfriend. 
Dom: OK, but I liked her first. Plus, she's in 3rd grade like me. You're just a baby. 
William: Yeah, but I'm a cute baby.

Photo credit: Rebecca J. Imagery


Me and Hubby: *smooch*
Dom: Did you guys just kiss?
Hubby: Yes.
Dom: EW! Helloooo, I'm in the room!





Thursday, February 16, 2017

Keeping Up Appearances



The rational side of my brain knows that there's nothing to fear. But the other side of my brain is under siege. It's trying to get the fuck out of there and doesn't care what kind of special reasoning you have. My heart pounds so fiercely that I can feel it reverberating in my throat. My eyebrows knot, my eyes squint, my breath quickens. I begin to sweat. My legs get restless. My head aches like a 1,000 hangovers. I gnaw my fingernails down to the quick. The more I try to calm down and think about something else, the worse it gets. 

Why is this happening? It's a refrain that plays in my head over and over. JUST STOP IT. 

It finally becomes unbearable and I close my eyes. And breathe deeply and slowly. In. Out. Just breathe. You've got this. It's OK. You're OK. There's nothing to fear. Keep breathing. 

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That's what happens to me sometimes. I have generalized anxiety disorder (and depression, but that's another post for another day) and sometimes the smallest thing will set off a panic attack. It can begin and end in a matter of minutes, or sometimes it drags on longer, or it can come and go in an intermittent cycle of suckage. I can't control it or always predict when it will happen, and though medicine helps a lot, it's still not a 100% cure.

Sometimes I don't leave the house for days, other than taking my kids to school, because I think somehow solitude can prevent it from happening. Calls get ignored, texts go unanswered. It's all I can do to keep it together, to keep my balance in this precarious eggshell dance. Armed with my arsenal of comfort, I tune out the world. 

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"Why don't we talk anymore?"
"Where have you been stranger?"
"Are you mad at me?"
"Anxiety? That's kind of a lame excuse, isn't it?" 
"How come I never see you?" 
"What is going on with you? You seem different." 

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And sometimes I'm fine. I'm me. The clouds part, the sun shines. I feel good. I laugh, my eyes twinkle, I hum my favorite songs under my breath. 

It's a roller coaster - equal parts thrilling and vomit-inducing. But all I can do is hold on. Enjoy the climb, endure the fall. 

Sometimes my outer facade masks my inner turmoil. 

"Well, you look fine to me." 
"Whatever. You're just being lazy." 
"Making up excuses, are we? I can take a hint." 

---

Invisible illnesses are cruel afflictions. They keep up appearances, like slapping a fresh coat of paint on a crumbling interior. And those afflicted by them can only beseech you to try to understand, to be patient, to know that "it's not you, it's me" is actually a true statement. 

I can't control it. I can only do my best and surround myself with love. And remember that the good days outnumber the bad.


Monday, February 6, 2017

My Favorite Podcasts


One of my new favorite pasttimes is listening to podcasts. They've been around for awhile, but I didn't really pay much attention until recently and now I'm hooked. Here are some of my favorites, broken down into various categories.

Business

- The Goal Digger Podcast: Jenna Kutcher hosts the live workshop style business podcast for creative girl bosses, so you can train from the experts how to dig in, do the work, and tackle your biggest goals along the way. 

- BeYOUtifully Bold in Business Podcast: Nicole Hoglund and Samantha Johnston have entrepreneurs share their real and honest stories about how they are able to lead beautifully and boldly in business. They offer tips on how to stay authentic in a world where so much noise can cloud our better judgement. 

- Uncomplicate Your Business: Racheal Cook helps you to get excited about your business again by helping you to be less stressed and to create your business around your desired lifestyle. 

- Don't Keep Your Day Job: This is a weekly podcast hosted by Cathy Heller showcasing how creative people have made a living doing what they love. 


Motherhood

- Lose the Cape: Featuring busy moms and mompreneurs who are determined to make the world a better place. 

- Mother's Quest: For moms who want to live a truly EPIC life and become the hero of their own journey. 

- Coffee + Crumbs: Storytelling about motherhood and the beautifully hard work of raising children. 

- The Longest Shortest Time: A parenting show for everyone. 


Creativity

- #createlounge: Creatives share their best advice for embracing everyday creativity. 

- Magic Lessons with Elizabeth Gilbert: Liz helps aspiring artists overcome their fears and create more joyfully. 

- Roam + Golightly: It's your weekly pick-me-up filled with encouragement and insight to help you lead the adventurous, creative lifestyle you crave... even in the real world. 


Soul Work

- The Grit and Glitter Podcast: Your weekly dose of truth and inspiration. Features real, raw, soulful conversations about our own self-doubts and insecurities. 

- Dear Sugar Radio: Hosted by Cheryl Strayed and Steve Almond. Offers radical empathy for the lost, lonely, and heartsick. 

- TEDTalks: Talks designed to inspire, intrigue, and stir the imagination from some of the world's leading thinkers and doers. 

- Sweet Stella's Guided Meditations: Self-explanatory, I think. :) 

- Beautiful Stories from Anonymous People: 1 phone call. 1 hour. No names. No holds barred. From shocking confessions and family secrets to philosophical questions and shameless self-promotion, anything can happen. 


Politics or Political Satire

- The Bugle: Andy Zaltzman breaks down the news with comedians from all across the world. 

- The Axe Files with David Axelrod: A series of revealing interviews with key figures in the political world. 

- NPR Politics Podcast: Weekly roundups and quick takes on the news of the day. 


Miscellaneous

- Lore: A bi-weekly podcast about the dark historical tales that fuel our modern superstitions. Because sometimes the truth is more frightening than fiction. 

- Book Club Appetizer: A snackable podcast to help you kick off your book club meetings or enhance your solo reading adventures. 

- Stuff You Should Know: Join Josh and Chuck as they explore the stuff you should know about everything from genes to the Galapagos. 

- The Scot and The Sassenach: An Outlander Podcast: Dedicated to the Starz show adaptation of Diana Gabaldon's Outlander book series. 


What are your favorite podcasts? I'm always on the lookout for news ones, so feel free to comment below.