How do you know when you are doing the right thing? Is it a feeling you get in your gut? Is it when someone you care about tells you that you're doing the right thing?
I used to struggle with this a lot. Over-thinking things, kicking my anxiety into overdrive. I would become plagued with indecision. It's hard when life doesn't come with an owner's manual. We spend a majority of our early lives being told what to do and when to do it by our families, by teachers, by bosses, etc. But when you become an adult, you are suddenly left to decide so many things that have a huge impact on your life and future. You hope that you've learned enough and have been instilled with values that will point your moral compass in the right direction.
It took me a long time to become comfortable with my decisions. For me, it comes down to how my decisions makes me feel and how they impact my family. My two most important deciding factors. And I've found that hey, I am doing things right. My choices may not be what others would choose, but they work for me and I feel at peace.
Some things that I'm doing right:
I'm not at all trying to brag or imply that my marriage is perfect. We have our ups and downs like every couple. But I know that I absolutely love this man that I married. Every day he simultaneously irritates me and makes me smile, in that way that only he knows how. And my heart aches with how amazing he is as a husband and a father. Waking up every morning knowing that I'm safe and loved - I can't ask for more than that.
I don't have all the answers. There are days when I'm so stressed and exhausted that I can't see straight. There are days when I think I'm not doing enough for my boys. But I love those two little people with everything I have. And when I see how sweet they are, how loving, how incredibly goofy - I know that I don't have to be perfect or know it all. My kids are loved and they know it and that means I have to be doing something right.
Again, I'm not trying to brag or say that I'm the best writer on the planet. I'm just saying that writing makes me so happy. I feel fulfilled. I feel like I have a creative outlet that brings me such joy. Whether it's poetry or short stories or blog posts - I can't get enough.
What are some things that you're doing right?
P.S. Don't forget to join us on March 4th for the next Write or Die Wednesdays link up. The prompt is: Adventure. Hope to see you there!