Saturday, October 13, 2012

Who am I?


I'm in a funk, this is your warning.

My face suddenly has a few wrinkles.  My hair suddenly has a few grays.  I can no longer eat whatever I want and rely on my young metabolism to keep me looking thin. But I eat what I want anyway. My "cute" clothes no longer fit. Who am I? I don't recognize myself in the mirror. I try to avoid photos as much as possible because I don't like seeing myself. I don't just mean the physical changes, but also the look in my eyes. When did I become this lump of a person? When I'm at work, I sit on my ass.  When I'm at home, I sit on my ass.  I'm so tired, so indifferent.  What happened to my zest for life?

I see people out there doing great things and living life to the fullest and I wonder... Am I the only person who feels this way?

And who is this person that I've become? 


15 comments:

  1. I can relate to this post so much!

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  2. I think we all feel this way from time to time. Sometimes forcing yourself to go on a walk outside helps!!

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  3. Mia, I know what you look like, and you're beautiful. I know a very tiny bit of who you are, and it's awesome. Almost everyone in the world could be doing more than what they are, but the truth is we do what we care about and let the rest slide, and that's cool. Keep rocking on, because you rock.

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  4. Oh, I have been feeling like this for a while and can totally relate. However, I think you're gorgeous! Funks just happen every once in a while :( xo

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  5. Hmm, its like you're in my head. I've felt this way for awhile. I decided to join the gym - it gets me out of the house and off my ass. Plus I think in the long run it will be good for me. Hugs - We all feel like this at some point, you can only go up from here!

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  6. Believe me, I have those days, weeks months too. I think the pictures I have seen in stunning and the little I know of the inside is beautiful! I have had some long months like that in the past, but a change in a job and just deciding to get some fresh air with my dogs helped! :)

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  7. I could have written this post word for word because it is exactly how I feel.

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  8. Hey lady! Following you now, and following back on twitter too :) Hope you'll stop by next week for my find + follow friday hop :)

    ♥ Nicole @ http://meandthem00n.blogspot.com

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  9. This isn't who you are, it's how you feel!! We love the you that shines out in your humor and insights, random and deep, on life :) I'm sorry you feel that way though, I hope you come perk up soon!! :)

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  10. Sometimes I feel the same way, everyone goes through it and eventually you will find your back to feeling more like your self. Hang in there girl!

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  11. I promise you you're not the only person who feels this way. I'm going through the 'where is life leading me' phase at the moment. Mia just know you are such a beautiful person. I am so blessed to have your friendship in my life and I can't wait until I get on a plane to come and see you :)
    The way you are feeling now will pass, just have faith.
    I love you x

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  12. You are definitely not the only person who feels this way! I've felt like this recently, too and I think setting time aside for things you enjoy (big or small!) is helpful. It's easier said than done, but worth a try :)

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  13. You're not the only person! It sounds like you're right around the corner from starting to make some mazing changes in your life. Seriously, I swear that it takes such incredible motivation to change your lifestyle that you have to hit the very bottom before you can make even the smallest of changes. But you CAN do it, and when you're ready, you WILL do it. Then, you'll be able to pay it forward, and help other women do it too. I believe in you!

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  14. I can ABSOLUTELY relate to everything you are saying here, so trust me when I say NO- you are NOT the only one! I think we all lose ourselves a little bit when we get married and then have kids. We are giving a pieces of ourselves all day everyday and then it feels as if nothing is left for us at the end. It's normal. I think we all feel it. Not all the time, but it comes and goes. It happens. Its real. Don't be so hard on yourself girl. Take this as a moment to step back and find a few minutes each day to think about you and only you. I am trying to take some weight off right now and it is too easy to curl up with ice cream and just check out, but I am noticing that with each right choice I gain a small piece of who I was. I wish that for you. You will find it- it will all be okay. Just know you are not alone. *hugs*

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  15. grey hairs!? shut it! you are so beautiful girl! but i know, as time goes on we keep getting older. its weird. i still feel 12. i think we all go through funks like this. its ok. just know its a phase & it will pass. dont get down on yourself. you are such a beautiful person inside & outside. stay strong! maybe you need to PIP? hehehe love you!

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